A little time for some stuff:
A couple bad things about having kidney stones -
1. Listening to everybody else's kidney stone adventures, especially when I'm writhing in pain.
2. Listening to everybody's theories on why we get kidney stones. Since my first kidney stone 27 years ago, I've heard it all and have no problems accepting the fact that nobody really knows.
3. Of course, the pain, and subsequent discomfort and chaos the experience brings to my comfortable routines.
4. Choosing between suffering the pain, or zoning in narco-space. Neither too pleasant.
Being the first born amongst my siblings, I am a natural "fixer", hyper responsible. That trait has served me well for most of my life, giving me the drive to find the strength to get back up and fix things, no matter how tough. As a mother, I also have a strong drive to protect my children. With this third child, however, these traits seem to be severely counter productive, and I find that I am crossing the line into enabling. The conflict here is that to be the best parent for this particular child, I have to go against my nature, but at the same time, it is my nature to be the best parent I can be. Figure that one out.
Tomorrow is a day in Boston with three of my favorite people - Crystal, Mel & Paul. We will have a nice lunch together, then go to the Charles Theater to see the Blue Man Group. Mel has never seen them before, so her Blue Man deflowering will only add another level of fun to the day. I don't know if I've ever laughed as long or hard as I did the first time I saw them with Paul a couple years ago. I purposely booked in the "poncho section". After the show we'll find a place to have coffee and desert. I am SO looking forward to this day!
Woke up this morning (first good thing of the day) before the alarm, wide awake, felt pretty good. Popped out of bed, groaned about going to work, but smiled 'cause it is FRIDAY. I'll do my end of week reports for work, and sort of not do much the rest of the day. I don't feel sick or angry or even frustrated or sad or disappointed. Love these kind of days. Wish I could identify why - I'd work hard to implement whatever it is more often.
Peace
3 comments:
i think kidney stones are caused by calcium deposits...
=)
bet you never heard THAT one before..
I love when I wake up feeling like that...
Amen on the "Couple of things about kidney stones"! I definitely needed to read that today! AND...
How insulting is it when people say, "Ooh, you must not drink enough water!" Hello! Classic case of blaming the victim! Gee, if I knew water would keep me from five lithotripsy appointments-and the subsequent agony of passing fragments... I would have had more water to drink! I sure wish my Urologist and Nephrologist had thought of that! HANG IN THERE! No five and dime advice from me, I promise! :-)
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